Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

You could definitely make the argument that we live in a narcissistic society, wherein everything is results oriented. We want it and we want it YESTERDAY.

Weight loss is a consistent struggle for MOST of us. I'd say all of us but you know those women that can seemingly eat anything and not gain an ounce. These are the same people that don't always have to work out either - those with "good genes" if you will.

Let's think about that for a second. My sister was blessed with a faster metabolism and can eat what she wants but my sister also only eats when she's hungry. She normally eats healthily and she is extremely active.

We have technically the same genes. Yet, I've struggled with my weight since the second grade.

I can correlate the events that occurred in my life that have resulted in me seeking food for comfort. I can tell you how old I was and how I did it every time I've lost enough weight for certain people to say I had my weight "under control." I'm my own therapist anymore and I can tell you why I do what I do.

The question becomes...how do I stop? I want to stop and I want to stop NOW!

So this leads me to yet another crossroads with myself. What am I going to do to control the habits that afflict my health? Well, the narcissist in me is going to be irritated, but I'm going to take baby steps.

Pinpoint the most detrimental habit or action to your inability to "control" your weight. I've done it. Now what am I going to do about it?

Today's focus: Evening eating aka snacking aka couch potato syndrome aka AM I REALLY HUNGRY OR DO I REALLY NEED ANOTHER BAG OF POPCORN?

Last night, I was at just under 1000 calories for the day. This included my one glass of red wine - SCORE! So I preceded to say, go ahead. Have that bag of popcorn. Okay, have another. Okay, it is 9 o'clock, you should go to bed but go and make creamed spinach. Granted, creamed spinach with 2% milk but there was probably enough Parmesan cheese in there to put my at 2000 for the day.

The goal at the end of these baby steps is a bridesmaid dress that I HAVE to fit into in September. I committed the cardinal sin of all bridesmaids and ordered it (almost) two sizes too small. What was I thinking?!

I was thinking this. I WILL lost weight. I WILL make myself healthier and I WILL fit into that dress in August (not September.)

The power of positive thought is now driving my actions. It will continue to drive my thoughts. Instead of being irritated for eating 2 bags of popcorn and creamed spinach last night, I will focus on what I am going to do so that doesn't happen anymore.

Day-by-day: Tonight, a walk with Liz. Salad with chicken at her place. Probably a few glasses of wine (a bottle between us.) Then home. Teeth brushed. To bed to read. No popcorn. No snacks.

I could and maybe should keep the focus daily but let's extend it to Thursday evening. Gym after work to walk for a minimum of 20 minutes. Home, something light and low-calorie for dinner. BRUSH THE TEETH. Maybe a glass or two of wine. ORGANIZE THE BILLS into the pile to shred then recycle and the pile to solely recycle. Then to bed to read.

I'll think about Friday tomorrow or Friday morning.

This is my stream of consciousness change in my routine that hopefully will result in a change in my entire lifestyle.

I want to be that woman that seemingly doesn't have a care in the world about what she puts in her mouth. It's an attainable goal - just not as of yesterday...

Oh and YES, omitting the glasses of wine would definitely help my journey (I refuse to call this a "struggle" any longer) BUT if I account for it, I can eat it or drink it!